Saturday, May 15, 2010

Power Failures at Peter's House

We were reading John 6 this morning and we came to the part where Jesus asked his disciples, "You do not want to leave me too, do you?"

Peter responded, "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."

The kids were impressed with Peter's answer. "How come Peter's like that, Mama? How can he be so awesome sometimes and so stupid at other times?

The power has been blinking on and off at our house for the past week and this is what I drew on for an explanation. "Well, it's kind of like the power around here. You know how everything is running fine and then the power blinks off and a few minutes later it comes back on? Peter is kind of like that. He has great faith but sometimes, under pressure, his faith shuts down for a little while. But the thing about Peter is that his faith, just like our power, always returns."

A few hours later the power went off giving the children a chance to reflect on the lesson of the morning. They've taken to calling our house, Peter's house.

I had a power failure of my own recently. The air conditioning in the car was not working and Stuart took it to the shop to be repaired. "It shouldn't be a big deal," he said. "It's probably just a leaky valve." It was not just a leaky valve. It was the compressor. Easily fixed for $854.00.

This was when I came unplugged. We have enough money for needs but not a lot left over for wants. I had planned to buy a rug for the girls room. But it got preempted by car parts. So I worried. What if we keep having repairs and medical bills like we have had for the past year? What if we run out of money before we run out of bills? This is a ridiculous thought. There are retirement accounts and a savings account and home equity. We are far more than an air compressor away from being on the street. It is too easy for me to make the leap from not being able to afford wants to doubting that our needs will be met. In my thirty-nine years of living there has not been a day where God has failed to meet my needs. Yet I battle this fear time and again.

This is silly. The parentheses of my creation and my eternal life... are already taken care of. Shouldn't I trust God with the details that make up the middle? He is working with me on this. He is pushing me harder to trust Him. He's opening my eyes to recognize the times when my faith goes on the blink. This time I fought back. This time I said no to panic. A few days later an unexpected check arrived in the mail. Not for $854.00 but the amount was unimportant. I think it was God's way of saying, You look to Stuart's job for your provision. Don't you realize that everything comes through my hands? See? I can take care of you. And He does.


Mary@notbefore7 said...

Sometimes God sends us some words at the exact right moment through a friend. Thank you! I just picked up my minivan from the shop today. It was in for the second time with A/C problems. I was called and the leak was discovered. It turns out the I need a new compressor to the tune of $900 or so. I almost dropped the phone. The worry kicks in immediately. My appointment to get it fixed is in 2 weeks, and hence, the bill will come then.

Your blog entry here is my little "envelope of money" reminding me that He is in control and I need to trust Him with the details. Thank you.

Alana said...

So true.

"All I have needed Thy hand hath provided."

That song keeps coming to me this week.

I think there must be a message in there for me as well.

Stephanie (Ocean Mommy) said...


I know exactly what you're saying, we are living that right now. All the medical bills, the job loss and 3 months of no income... it gets very easy to see the bills, and panic! BUT, so far God has provided every need! And I praise HIM for that. The past year has taught me to pray "give us this day our daily bread". And He has, every day. I think you've inspired a post here!

Thanks for being "real" about your fears and what God is teaching you.


Kathy at Sumballo said...

God is so good. He sends us love notes when we need them most. It's so easy to trust our resources rather than his resources - but I can't outspend his! Blessings to you! You encourage me!

tegdirb92 said...

what a wonderful message you brought me today. I am so glad I stopped by.

Thanks for visiting me today and all of the kind words of encouragement you gave to me.


Meg said...

Kate, It is all His and He gives abundantly to said no to the panic...great job! So often it is a matter of talking ourselves out of the faithless thoughts by telling ourselves the truth about who God is and who we are in Him. There is so much truth in the verse about taking every thought captive...our thoughts can be our worst enemy sometimes. Remember Him! That has been one of my goals for this past year. Remember Him and His work in my life. He is faithful. Thanks for sharing. Love, Meg

Darla said...

I think there is alittle "Peter" in all of us sometimes it's the Peter before the resurrection, and sometimes it is the Peter after Pentecost.

HE is faithful to bring to completion the good work HE has started in all of us.

lori said...

I relate so well to Peter...and I have worked for years on trusting God and freeing myself from worry. Great reminder..Ours was the a/c for the house..its leaking and needs a new compressor as well...won't even say how much!!:( but we have provided what we NEED, often that is so different than what we think we should get.
Loved the thoughts, thanks a thousand times over...

Etta said...

Thanks, Kate. I just got done reading Big Mama's Aug. 9 post, which was also on this same topic, and then came straight to yours. I'm thinking this must be something the Lord wants me to hear today! I just hope it's not because something else is going to go wrong! (Ha, ha!) But if it does, I'm sure he'll remind me of these two posts and of his provision. Thanks for sharing.

Christine said...

What a wonderful lesson and analogy! I love reading about how it was reflected in your life and your children's.

Faith said...

Mmm, so true. I can definitely relate! And I do love the "power" analogy. :)
And I love the parentheses analogy too. :)

Amy said...

Hi Kate,
Great insight! Thanks for sharing! And so glad to see a new post from you!
We miss you guys!
Much love!